Finding God in Suffering II: Jesus With The Sufferer


             Jesus is not just some philanthropist seeking to bail humanity out of their suffering but He is a lover seeking to draw near to His beloved in their suffering. These words ring throughout the depths of my soul; God desires to be with us in our pain and brokenness.

             “You would not have called to me unless I had been calling to you,” said the Lion this is such a powerful statement Aslan tells Jill in C.S. Lewis’ “The Chronicles of Narnia: ‘the Silver Chair’” In the midst of our own brokenness we are blinded to our own need, though we may be aware to a degree of our need we truly have no clue just how broken we are. Just as the man blinded by complete darkness cannot see the dirt and filth that covers, we cannot see just how dirty we are. It is this reason why in John 1:5, 9 it says The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it…9There was the true Light which, coming into the world, enlightens every man.” As the world lay in deep darkness unaware of its need suddenly a great light pierced through the veil to enlighten the souls of man.

God looking upon humanity’s inability to draw near to Him out of their own blindness took it upon Himself to solve the problem of alienation between God and man Himself. The answer was Jesus, the very Second Person of the Blessed Trinity; God in flesh. The One who spent eternity past arrayed in light took off His garbs of glory and took on the garments of dust. The one who knew equality with God laid it all aside to draw near to the broken, consequently now knowing equality with broken humanity. Until we understand the depths of what He gave up for us, we will never truly know the greatness of His love towards us, but this will be touched upon in a future blog. As stated prior, if you are a lover then you want to be with your beloved in all things, even in their pain. This is what it means to be a lover, to be with them in the rejoicing and in the weeping.

So God looking down upon us in our anguish took it upon Himself be with us. Like Aslan calling to Jill before she even knew there was an Aslan, Jesus was coming to us before we ever knew there was a Jesus. The lover was coming to His beloved before she ever knew they were ever loved.

 Christ Suffers With Us

            Let us begin with the most iconic moment where Jesus suffers with humanity. “Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. 6So when He heard that he was sick, He then stayed two days longer in the place where He was.7Then after this He *said to the disciples, ‘Let us go to Judea again.’” John 11:5-7 The Bible tells us that Jesus had love and affection for His friend Lazarus; thus, hearing that His friend is sick decides to stay two more days and then go see His friend. Having kept a low profile with the Jewish religious leaders seeking to kill Him, takes two more days and then comes out of hiding to go see His friend whom He knows is now dead. Does Jesus know that Lazarus is going to die prior to the time He leaves? Who knows but what we do know is that He decides to wait in order to bring glory to the Godhead.

As Jesus shows up on the scene Martha comes running up to Him to say in summary “If you were here my brother would still be alive, but I trust that You could do something” in which Jesus responds “You have no clue what I am up to but I do love you which is why I am here.” Martha leaves and sends Mary to Jesus. As Mary comes running up to Jesus she falls at His feet in tears saying in summary “I know You could have done something if You had simply been here.” Jesus looking at His friend weeping at His feet and those that came with her weeping was both deeply moved and troubled. Why troubled? Well we will save that for another time. What we do know is that Jesus experiences sorrow and begins to weep within; this is what it means in the Greek by wept. It is not a loud sobbing but rather a silent weeping that is primarily an experience of internal sorrow. So Jesus in other words is not performing some outward weeping like the professional mourners who accompanied Mary, but as one whose heart was broken in deep pain. As a side note at the time there were those who people would hire to come and mourn at a funeral, these being called mourners. This is why the silent and more internal weeping that Jesus experienced was a true experience of sorrow, thus in the moment Jesus is entering Mary’s own suffering as well as Lazarus’ suffering.

Turning to the John 8 we read the story of the woman caught in adultery being brought before Jesus for judgment. As all gathered to mock and condemn her as she wallowed in her shame before all to see; Christ knelt down beside her. As the upper echelon of religious elite sought to condemn her to death after she had experienced the fullness of shame possible, Christ did the unthinkable. The Great Rabbi adorned in fine garments got on his knees and played in the dirt. Though many have speculated what He was drawing whether He was writing their own sins or just doodling either way, whatever it was all their attention left the woman and moved to Christ. The religious elite no long looking and mocking the woman now with turned gazes stood bewildered at this Great Rabbi as His next words would leave them reeling to the point they would leave; yet, it was His drawing that moved her shame unto Him as the laughed at the “Great Rabbi” becoming the “Crazy Rabbi”.

Christ Enters into Suffering: Part I

            Jesus seeing that humanity was lost and broken and completely alienated from God became a man, lived thirty-three years and suffered death. However, though the cross was a painful experience it was His being cut off or separated from the Father that was the true pain. Jesus’ alienation from the Father began in Gethsemane and continued to build until it climaxed into total abandonment at the cross.

As Jesus entered into the Garden “He *took with Him Peter and James and John, and began to be very distressed and troubled. 34And He *said to them, ‘My soul is deeply grieved to the point of death; remain here and keep watch.’ 35And He went a little beyond them, and fell to the ground and began to pray that if it were possible, the hour might pass Him by.” Mark 14:33-35 For as the hour approached for Jesus to head to the cross His soul was already deeply pained to the point of death, so much that He couldn’t bare for eight of his disciples to even see Him in His sorrowful state of weakness. Jesus though not wavering in His identity or in any way committing a sin was now facing His greatest temptation and greatest fear; fear of being separated from His Father, separation from an eternal relationship.

His heart rent with deep agony fell to the ground and began to groan in intercession. For it was that   Jesus is now being tempted in a way that He never truly experience, that was far greater than what He had ever experienced, even in the wilderness. Jesus is in such agony and pain as to what is to come that He is yelling, groaning and even sweating drops of blood. Why, because He is afraid. Sure He is about to experience the greatest beating and one of the most painful deaths imaginable that is not simply enough to cause Him to enter into this state. Many men have gone to the cross and died that were of less character than He and never once suffered the agony we see Jesus entering into. So what is He afraid of? Well for one reason though not nearly as dramatic as the primary but big enough is the fact of betrayal. Jesus after many hours of pursuing His best friend Judas’ heart at the last supper, in hopes to save him, knows that he is coming to betray him, which will ultimately lead to his own damnation. (For more on this see Love’s Final Attempts) This is more than enough to break Jesus’ heart but still not enough to the point of His agony in Gethsemane even when paired to the sufferings on the cross.

Jesus in His agony yelled in deep sorrowful groaning “Abba! Father! All things are possible for You; remove this cup from Me; yet not what I will, but what You will.” Mark 14:36 Jesus is ultimately saying “Dad! I do not want to do this!!! Is there any other way? You are the most powerful and wisest person I know, PLEASE!!!! Have You found a new way? But if this is it…I will do it.” These prayers in the garden were not pretty eloquent prayers but groans of a man in complete terror, because of what is to come. Jesus is about to experience the wrath of God, Satan and Man that will ultimately lead to him being separated from God and Man.

Satan Wrath: This can be summed up in two ways. Satan is doing everything to keep Him from going to the cross, but also wants Him dead. Though the Bible does not openly acknowledge this, we can be sure that Satan is tempting Jesus in the Garden and all the way to the point off death to not go through with the cross. “When the devil had finished every temptation, he left Him until an opportune time.” Luke 4:13 With Jesus undergoing His greatest fear we can be safe to say there was no greater fear to tempt Him. Along with this when Jesus says to Peter to “Keep watching and praying that you may not come into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Mark 14:38 He was not simply telling them for themselves alone but also for Himself. His Spirit was in Full Obedience to the will of His Father, but His flesh was terrified and thus tempted. With this in mind the other aspect of Satan’s wrath is in the fact that he hates God so much that he wants to see Him suffer to the point of death. So both sides are crashing upon Christ’s frame. However the next two are even harder on Him.

Humanity’s Wrath: The ones Jesus loves and came to save are now betraying Him, mocking Him, beating Him, rejecting Him and are soon going to kill him.

God Wrath Fall Upon Him: As the sin of humanity descends upon Jesus His Father would release the full judgment upon His Son that would cancel the judgment destined for humanity, thus also leading the Father turning His back on the son and cutting off from fellowship with Him; this leaving the Son completely abandoned and ultimately an orphan. This being the greatest suffering He will ever experience, the suffering of abandonment from the One Who loved Him for eternity past.

            The writer of Hebrews states that because of Jesus’ piety the Father heard His cries and does respond in two ways the first being He sends angels to strengthen His Son in the Garden and the ultimate is that He truly did save Him from death, but not the way Jesus had hoped. The Father saved Him by death through the resurrection. But in between the two the Father does not say or do anything. Why do I say this? Well for one Jesus is praying three times in the Garden and the Father does not answer but only by sending angels, thus showing the estrangement from each other has begun. The ultimately display is when Jesus for the first time ever address God not as Father but as God when He cries out “My God, My God, Why have You forsaken me?” Jesus no longer using the familial address of Father but is now taking on the cries of an orphaned heart saying ultimately “God where are You? Why have you have abandoned me and casted me out into darkness and silence?” Yet in His time of pain and abandonment He never gave up.

In His abandonment Jesus becomes cut off from an eternal relationship from His own Father; thus, bringing alienation to fullness. The Son becoming cut off went from an eternal relationship of always experiencing and feeling His Father’s love to being alienated and separated. It is for this reason why He was sweating blood in Gethsemane, because He knows what is to come and is terrified and does not want this. Thus Jesus experienced loneliness and can actually say “I know how the widow feels when they are lonely.” Think of you marrying the love of your life at 18 years old and you remain in married bliss for the next seventy years and now at 88 years old your spouse tragically leaves you because they no longer love you. Think of how traumatizing and painful that would be, then times that by ten billion and you still cannot touch the depths of the pain of the Father’s abandonment of the Son. This sorrow was experienced equally on both sides in different ways, but that is a point for a different time. It is this sorrow of abandonment and separation from His Father that stands alone and equal to all the suffering humanity has ever experienced combined.

Christ Enters Into Suffering: Part II

            As the story of the Gospels go on, Jesus is betrayed by His best friend whose breast He once leaned upon in fellowship just a few hours earlier. (For more on this see Love’s Final Attempts) Jesus even at the last supper expressed the pain of what Judas’ betrayal through one of David’s Psalms as one of the greatest pains a person can experience. Side note the Gospels recognize Judas as a thief and Jesus was aware, thus Jesus suffered being robbed on multiple occasions even by His close friend. However; not only does Judas betray Him, but all of His friends abandon Him, Peter denies Him three times and Judas kills himself. This is alone is enough to break the strongest of hearts, yet Christ endures. While Christ is on trial He is beaten, mocked and spit upon constantly that leads to His crucifixion. The ones He loves and came to save would soon send Him to the cross to hang naked humiliation for all to see and mock. The betrayal of His own people was such a huge pain of suffering that one cannot fully grasp without a deeper understanding of His relationship with them throughout the Old Testament.

As already stated but while hanging on the cross Christ would soon experience the greatest suffering ever in all of history, the suffering of His abandonment from the Father. Yet even in the face of His abandonment Christ pressed on to endure one final suffering; He died. Jesus Himself declared about His own life in John 10:18 that “No one has taken it away from Me, but I lay it down on My own initiative.” In other words if Jesus had never willingly went to the cross, because He makes it clear to Pilate that He could have delivered Himself if He had wished, but if He did not willingly die He would never die. Jesus could not die unless He allowed. But He is a man right? Yes, but even in His humanity because He had never sinned He was not subject to the curse of death. This meaning Jesus would still be alive preaching and doing miracles today if He had never died. Even more because He had never died, Jesus could not get sick, or grow to be an “old man” full of wrinkles, lose His eyesight, go bald or even go grey as all of those are consequences of sin. If you were to have never sinned, then you would not be bound by death and decay and all that accompanies, thus all the more important for Jesus to willingly lay down His life. With this in perspective Jesus suffering of death is far greater than even the average.

Jesus with the Present Day Sufferer

            When finding Christ with the present day sufferer few have said it better and clearer than C.S. Lewis in “The Horse and His Boy”

Shasta was a little reassured by the breath: so he told how he had never known his real father or mother and had been brought up sternly by the fisherman.  And then he told the story of his escape and how they were chased by lions and forced to swim for their lives; and of all their dangers in Tashbaan and about his night among the tombs and how the beasts howled at him out of the desert.  And he told about the heat and thirst of their desert journey and how they were almost at their goal when another lion chased them and wounded Aravis.  And also, how very long it was since he had had anything to eat.

“I do not call you unfortunate,” said the Large Voice.

“Don’t you think it was bad luck to meet so many lions?” said Shasta.

“There was only one lion,” said the Voice.

“What on earth do you mean?  I’ve just told you there were at least two the first night, and -”

“There was only one: but he was swift of foot.”

“How do you know?”

“I was the lion.”  And as Shasta gaped with open mouth and said nothing, the Voice continued.  “I was the lion who forced you to join with Aravis.  I was the cat who comforted you among the houses of the dead.  I was the lion who drove the jackals from you while you slept.  I was the lion who gave the horses the new strength of fear for the last mile so that you should reach King Lune in time.  And I was the lion you do not remember who pushed the boat in which you lay, a child near death, so that it came to the shore where a man sat, wakeful at midnight, to receive you.” 

            So where was Jesus? Where was God in the Holocaust? Where was He when the child was being abused? Where was God during injustice? Where was He as present day humanity suffers?

Well He was with the prisoner in the gas chambers at Auschwitz. God was with the slaves being lynched during slavery. He was on His knees with the woman caught in adultery. He was with Mary and Martha in her sorrow at Lazarus’ grave. He was hanging on a cross with both thieves on Calvary. He was with the child hiding in their closet from their abusive father. He was weeping with the child whose parent(s) tragically died. He was with the single mother struggling to take care of her children. He was with young man filled with shame cause he was bound in sexual immorality. He was with the man who just couldn’t seem to get it right. He was with the one who could see everyone around them prospering with relative ease and they fought to keep going. He was with the one stuck in addiction. He was with the one who felt worthless. He was never distant and never will be distant from the sufferer but will always be right there with them.

            In summary I will leave you with C.S. Lewis in The Problem of Pain “We can ignore even pleasure. But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”


Finding God in Suffering


After listening to Dr. Peter Kreeft’s lecture on Suffering I decided to write my own blog on the issue of suffering having had this on my mind for a while as well as having been inspired from his brilliant lecture. So let us begin.

Throughout the ages humanity has perpetually known a state of suffering that leaves the constant question “Why?” and “Where is God?” To find the answer to “Where is God in suffering?” first we must ask the questions: “What is suffering?” and “Why do we suffer?” before we can answer the question “Where is God?” So let’s use logic and start off with the first question.

What is suffering? The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines suffering as: The state where one must endure death, pain, or distress. It is the state in which one must sustain loss or damage or be subject to disability or handicap.

Aristotle wrote that “we do not have knowledge of a thing until we have grasped its why, that is to say, its cause.”[1] He went on to establish what is known as the “Four Causes” which are four possible answers to the question “Why?” something happens. These four causes are: Formal, Material, Efficient and Final.

  • Formal: What is it? Define it. What’s its form, nature species?
  • Material: What is it made of? What is the content?
  • Efficient: Where did it come from? Who made it?
  • Final: What is it for? What is its purpose?

With the issue of suffering thanks to Merriam-Webster we have already given a broad definition to the form of suffering, but for the sake of an example we will use the suffering of physical abuse. The first two questions are easy to answer. What is the Formal Cause of our chosen suffering? It is physical abuse. What is the Material Cause? It is a father beating is son. What is the Efficient Cause? This could be from drinking/drugs, depression, mental illness, anger or any other place of brokenness that can be found in the father that would cause him to lash out. Last but not least the hardest question: What is the Final Cause to the suffering of physical abuse? This last one is the hardest.

In our search for understanding we will look at some Philosophers who sought to make sense to suffering. The first is Buddha who once said “To live is to suffer” in which Nietzsche added “To live is to suffer; to survive is to find meaning in the suffering.” Yet it was Viktor E. Frankl in his book “Man’s Search for Meaning” Frankl adds on to Buddha and Nietzsche “If there is a purpose in life at all, there must be a purpose in suffering and in dying. But no man can tell another what this purpose is. Each must find out for himself, and must accept the responsibility that his answer prescribes.” So with that in mind, what is the meaning to life? Jesus laid this out for us in the Gospels when asked what the greatest commandment is. It is Love. It is to be loved by God, to love Him in return and consequently love yourself and then others. So if there is meaning to life (i.e. Love) what is the meaning of a child’s suffering physical abuse from his father? For if life has meaning then suffering must logically have some meaning or purpose to it.

Was there even a meaning for Jesus in what He suffered? Yes! A constant theme in the Psalms and the Proverbs is that God exalts the lowly and in Philippians 2 Paul states that in Christ’s lowliness displayed in His incarnation, suffering and death He was exalted. The in Revelation 5 we see glimpse of what He gets in His exaltation. So in that there was some meaning to Christ’s life on the earth it was simply a reward. In Isaiah 53 it states that there will be a reward to be given to the “Suffering Servant” which that being in part the offering of the nations as seen in Psalms 2. So Jesus in His life and suffering has meaning. It is glory, honor, riches, a kingdom, a bride and so much more. But the question still stands “What is our meaning to suffering?”

Buddha who founded his religion/philosophy on four noble truths the first of which says “To live is to suffer” from the suffering of birth to death and all of that lies within. Though there is some truth to this, Buddha based his whole religion on escaping suffering. Jesus on the other hand came and contrary to Buddha came to lead humanity not out of suffering but to lead us into suffering, for Him sin was the key issue to all suffering. This we know as Christians is the ultimate Efficient Cause to suffering. So if for the Christian all suffering came from the root of our sin what is the purpose?

In Hebrew 5 it says that Jesus had to learn obedience through His suffering. Along with that the Greek Poet Aeschylus said “Wisdom comes alone though suffering.” So is the purpose of suffering to gain wisdom or obedience? Paul states in Romans 8:28 that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God…” So though that doesn’t answer the question entirely it does mean God can create a meaning for it, the meaning being good. In the case of the abused child the good can be they grow up to poor into those that come from broke homes. Which is simply Nietzsche Frankl’s point; the child survived the abuse grew up and found meaning in it by using their understanding of the issue to help others. But is there more purpose to it?

If God brings good out of suffering, then is their more? For the woman caught in adultery in John 8 it was Jesus. In her suffering she found God. For David in the midst of his suffering we see in the Psalms it was an opportunity for him to cry out to God. So in the midst of our suffering we can find some meaning in that it is an opportunity to encounter God. For the abused child it is an opportunity to cry out to God, though that does not mean the suffering will stop, for as we know as Christians that suffering will never end until sin is gone. For sin is the Efficient Cause.

As Dr. Peter Kreeeft says “However these Four Causes are not meant to be a solution to the problem of suffering but to hone in on its centrality. There are two parts to the problem of suffering: Practical and Theoretical.” The practical being simply what do we do with it?

The theoretical which is the logic of it, why must we suffer? Through a secular lens we can try and keep growing in society and in our understanding and eventually we will evolve into a more enlightened being that has become above suffering and injustice. But to quote Sigmund Freud in “Civilization and Its Discontents” puts it “Why, now that we have become gods aren’t we happy?” Now that we are so enlightened why does life stink? Why do we suffer? Was Buddha right? Are we just destined to keep suffering? Is there a purpose? Is there an end? Well practically through the secular lens we must simply live through it and endure…that is a very depressing answer. However; if you are a Christian there is a hope and His name is Jesus. Jesus is the answer to the problem of suffering, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves.

Theoretically if you live in a corrupt system, then you can always revolt and build a utopia on earth free of all corruption and be done away with the issue of why you are suffering, but then again you are still going to suffer death so issue is still unresolved.

But if you are a Christian and believe that God is the author of a story and is writing both the beginning and the end and all that lies within then the question is “Why does He write such a dreadful story?” This seems to be part of where Job the “archetypical sufferer” who in the midst of his suffering asks God “Why me?” in which God instead of answering his questions responds with His own questions. To ultimately sum up God’s response “Who do you think you are, you can’t possibly understand, I’m the author, you’re the character but that is ok I still love you.” David seems to a have a similar response as Job in the midst of his suffering when he asks “Why me?” except David always seems to add something Job doesn’t seem to remember “Why me? Either way I still trust You and know that You are good.” Coincidentally both seem to encounter God in the midst of their suffering. Concerning suffering Dr. Kreeft states “Perhaps one of the things God wants us to do is to get angry with Him, because that makes us similar to Socrates. It makes us ask questions.” I myself have found this to be true in my own life because of the anger I experience from my suffering I have found myself turning to God to ask Him the hard questions. Much like Job and David in the Psalms I turned to the One who could see the end from the beginning.

Dr. Kreet makes the point that, if in fact we are characters in a story written by God then that means we cannot truly understand all that is going on, even suffering because if we did that means God would no longer be God and instead simply He would be us. But since the character cannot see all that the author is writing, then we cannot fully comprehend all that is going on all we can do is simply trust in the leadership of the transcendent author. If this is true then this is one answer to the problem of suffering, simply to Trust or Faith in God’s leadership.

Another answer to the problem is Hope, which is simply Faith in the future. So it is possible that we will not fully understand suffering in this age but in the age to come when God has done away with suffering. Or in other words it is like the character trying to figure out where the author is taking him in his story but ultimately can’t fully understand until it is all over and book two starts and he can look back. So consequently all he can do is trust in the leadership of the author by putting his hope that the author will right the wrongs.

Lastly the deepest answer to the issue of suffering is love or rather solidarity with sufferers and if you truly do love someone then you want to be with them wherever they are, you want to be close to them, you want intimacy. It is one thing if to show love by bailing someone out of their suffering but it is another to experience their suffering with them. It is the shortest verse of the Bible; “Jesus wept.” In which when Jesus wept over the loss of his friend with Mary the people said “See how He loved him.” Jesus experienced both the pain of Lazarus’ death and the pain that Mary was experiencing. Sure Jesus could have stopped Lazarus from dying, but He didn’t because He is the author and brought good out of it. But in Lazarus and Mary’s suffering Jesus was their relating with them.

Thus if you are a Christian the greatest answer to the problem of suffering is as stated earlier is Jesus. Who took off His garments of light and clothed Himself in dust to walk among the broken to identify with their suffering, thus showing the greatness of His love. In being with us in our suffering we experience a greater level of intimacy is birthed, this is for everyone because everyone suffers.

Dr. Kreeft paints the picture: If your car breaks down in a horrible snow storm and all you can do is contact your brother. When he shows up he doesn’t know how to fix your car, but all he knows to do is sit with you in the midst of your trial until the morning when you can get a tow truck to come to your rescue. So looking back is guy more thankful for the brother or the tow truck guy? Is he more thankful for the one was with him in his suffering or rescued him? Well it would be the one who was with him. I can attest to this in my experience more times than naught, in my times of suffering all I really wanted was someone to just come sit with me as I experienced the inevitable pain. Now praise be to God that Jesus is both the brother in the story who sits with us in our suffering and the transcendent author who at the end of the story will right every wrong on our behalf. Jesus was with the child being abused, He was the One who rescued the child from being abused and the One who healed and matured the abused child into a grown man capable of ministering to the broken. Jesus is the answer to suffering. Thus knowing I can meet Jesus in my suffering well to quote Nietzsche: “He who has a ‘why’ to live can bear with almost any ‘how’.” Those that have a ‘why’ or a meaning to be found in suffering can endure it because Jesus is there.

[1] “Four Causes”. Falcon, Andrea. Aristotle on Causality. Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy 2008


Lessons from Isaac in Sonship.

Isaac meets Rebekah

Walking in Confidence as a Son: Confidence in the now, with a hope for the future

When we think of what it means to be a son, let alone a confident son, too few struggle to comprehend this thought. Why is that? It is because we live in a generation where fatherlessness runs rampant all throughout America. I myself grew up without a father during most of my life, but does that mean I’m completely fatherless? Does that mean I am doomed to live out the role of the proverbial bastard? No! Why? Because there is One who has called me to be His Son…He has called us all.

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him. In love He predestined us to adoption as sons through Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the kind intention of His will…In Him 11 also we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to His purpose who works all things after the counsel of His will…13 you were sealed in Him with the Holy Spirit of promise, 14 who is given as a pledge of our inheritance, with a view to the redemption of God’s own possession, to the praise of His glory.” Ephesians 1:3-14

Before we were born there was One who desired to have us as His sons and daughters. Not only does He desire us, but He has taken care of everything for us to live out eternity as royalty being bathed in His unending love. All we have to do is say yes, believe and receive. However, we live in an age where the picture of what a father looks like is either greatly distorted or missing, so in short it is far easier said than done.

In Genesis 24 Abraham having been recently widowed, saw that his son Isaac had no wife of his own; thus, called his chief servant to his side. Abraham seeing that his son was sorrowful at the loss of his mother and having enjoyed his years with his son, desired that his son would have a family of his own before he passed away. Therefore he charged the man to go to the land of his fathers and bring back a bride for his son. Without anyone telling Isaac what had transpired the servant was off. As the servant traveled to the land of Abraham’s fathers in search for a bride for Isaac, Isaac continued on with the day-to-day in ignorance of what his father was up to.

With his father Abraham reaching the end of his days and his mother having already passed away, Isaac wanted to spend his time with his elderly father. Being fixated on serving and being with his father, Isaac would not be distracted by the cares of this world; even at forty years old he remained obedient in love to his father.

So it came to pass that as the servant returned with a beautiful, God-fearing virgin bride, Isaac went out to the field to pray. As Isaac unaware went out to meditate in the field toward the evening; and he lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, camels were coming. 64 Rebekah lifted up her eyes, and when she saw Isaac she dismounted from the camel. 65 She said to the servant, “Who is that man walking in the field to meet us?” And the servant said, “He is my master.” Then she took her veil and covered herself. 66 The servant told Isaac all the things that he had done. 67 Then Isaac brought her into his mother Sarah’s tent, and he took Rebekah, and she became his wife, and he loved her; thus Isaac was comforted after his mother’s death.

Isaac knew that His father desired him and had a destiny for him as well as an inheritance, and it was from that place he could walk in confidence. Even after forty years and having lost his mother, he could walk with his head up confidently knowing that his father loved him and had a plan and future planned for him. With unwavering confidence in his father’s love for him, he went up the mountain as a boy to be sacrificed and with unwavering faith in his father he went out to the field to meditate on the Lord.

This is what we are called to be, those like Isaac who are confident in their identity as sons and daughters. Today take time and ask the Father to declare to your heart His love for you and desires for you to have a future. For He has given to us the His Spirit as the down payment of our inheritance that is to come in Him; not only that but the Spirit testifies to our hearts who we are in the Father. So let the Holy Spirit speak to your heart today. He wants to encounter you, He wants you to be confident in His love for you just like Isaac was confident in Abraham’s love for him.

“The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God,” Romans 8:16

Pre-Pentecost vs. Post Pentecost and what changed with the filling of the Holy Spirit.


When we read about Pentecost and what ensues after it we see the disciples filled with boldness in their preaching and operating in “extraordinary miracles,” but was this all because of the “out pouring” or something else? What changed after they were filled? What didn’t change? For the record I must state that I have yet to fully achieve the complete answer, but merely have found an argument/perspective based off my observations to hopefully cause one to consider to dig into the scriptures to find truth.

Before we start with the book of acts let’s look at what we see these followers doing in the Gospels so to get a better grasp on what is new post out pouring. In the Gospels we see the disciples already doing signs and wonders and operating in authoritative preaching. When Jesus send out His disciples it says He gave them authority of unclean spirits. And He *summoned the twelve and began to send them out in pairs, and gave them authority over the unclean spirits. Mark 6:7 But what we see them doing is even more than simply casting demons out, but we see them healing the sick and preached of the coming kingdom. We can safely assume that the preaching had some level of impact of people, because they are preaching, healing and casting demons out; the latter is the most unusual of the three. They went out and preached that men should repent. 13And they were casting out many demons and were anointing with oil many sick people and healing them. Mark 6:12-13

So in the Gospels we see the twelve operating healing, casting out of demons and  preaching, however; the twelve are not the only ones Jesus appoints to do ministry with Him. Now after this the Lord appointed seventy others, and sent them in pairs ahead of Him to every city and place where He Himself was going to come. Here we see the seventy being formed to prepare the way for Him, but what does that look like? “and heal those in it who are sick, and say to them, ‘The kingdom of God has come near to you.’” Luke 10:9 Here we see the seventy are commanded to heal and preach, but did they stop there? No, let us continue on. The seventy returned with joy, saying, “Lord, even the demons are subject to us in Your name.” 18And He said to them, “I was watching Satan fall from heaven like lightning. 19Behold, I have given you authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing will injure you.20Nevertheless do not rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you, but rejoice that your names are recorded in heaven.” Luke 10:17-20 So we see the seventy come back saying “Wow You said heal and preach but we thought why not try to cast some demons out and it worked!” Jesus responds, “Ya I saw Satan himself get lose ground because of what you did, good job but it gets better. Because you are citizens of heaven!” So in summary  we have eighty-two people preaching, healing, and casting out demons, but do they perform signs and wonders?

So the question on the table is do any of the eighty-two, seventy and the twelve, do any of them perform signs and wonders? In Luke chapter nine before the seventy are even formed we see two interesting things. First some random person is casting demons out in Jesus’ name. Why is this unique? Because he is not of the twelve and the seventy has not been formed yet, meaning even if he were to be one of the ones invited into the seventy he has not been commanded by Jesus to go forth in power. John answered and said, “Master, we saw someone casting out demons in Your name; and we tried to prevent him because he does not follow along with us.” Luke 9:49 The second is even wilder because it is stepping into a new category of supernatural power. When His disciples James and John saw this, they said, “Lord, do You want us to command fire to come down from heaven and consume them?” Luke 9:54 That’s right two of the disciples ask Jesus if He would have them call fire down on an entire city and consume all of its inhabitants. That is more than a sign that is a wonder; with that in mind let us not forget all of the supernatural signs, wonders, healing  preaching and removal of demons from Moses, the judges, the prophets, Joshua and even David. On a side note consider the powerful transformation of John going from the one asking to destroy a city and all of its inhabitants and fighting to be the greatest to become the Apostle of Love.

There is one last miracle to consider and it is this; Peter walked on water. in the fourth watch of the night He came to them, walking on the sea. 26When the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, ‘It is a ghost!’ And they cried out in fear. 27But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, ‘Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid.’ 28Peter said to Him, ‘Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water.’ 29And He said, ‘Come!’And Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But seeing the wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink, he cried out, ‘Lord, save me!’ 31Immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and took hold of him, and *said to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt? Matthew 14:25-31 So Peter is also doing a sign and a wonder but what happens? His faith wavers and he is no longer able to perform this sign and wonder.

In John 14:12 Jesus tells the eleven disciples that those who believe in Jesus can do the same works Jesus does and even greater. Then from there in John 14:26 and 16:7-14 Jesus declares that the Holy Spirit will help the disciples remember Jesus’ words, teach them more about God and just help them out. Also He will convict people of sin, righteousness and judgment.

So we see that Pre-Pentecostal Out Pouring that followers of Christ are performing, signs, wonders, healings,  casting out of demons and are preaching, so what is new? The Holy Spirit? Yes…and no…And when He had said this, He breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. John 20:22 That’s right ten of Jesus’ followers have apparently already received the Holy Spirit. Now if that isn’t confusing then I don’t know what is. So let us try to figure this out. Did the Holy Spirit they receive here was it a smaller Holy Spirit and later they would get a bigger one? May it never be! In Acts 1:5 Jesus tells the disciples that soon they will be baptized with the Holy Spirit, but of these eleven we know Thomas was the only one not there when the ten were filled. So is it just for Thomas? Also in Acts 1:8 Jesus says, “but you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you; and you shall be my witnesses…” So what does this mean? They already are operating in some serious power. Let us continue.

In Acts 2:4 it says “And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit was giving utterance.” So here we see everyone in the room is now filled with the Spirit and now they are doing a brand new sign and wonder. But what of the ten previously filled? Ready for the answer? I don’t know. The best conclusion we can see is that though they were filled they may now have become awakened to the movement of the Spirit until Pentecost.

After Pentecost they are still doing signs, wonders, healings, demon removals and preaching, but two things have changed. First they are doing these things in a more abundance. Second thing is their faith is not wavering like it once did. In the Gospels when the Jews came for Jesus the twelve are scattered, the seventy are unheard from, Peter denies three times and only John returns. However, after Pentecost and when the disciples are all filled with the Holy Spirit their faith is no longer really wavering like it once did, in fact their faith seems to have been both strengthened and dramatically increased. Why? Because the amount of miracles the disciples are doing has increased and the fact that they are performing more powerful and unique miracles. Their handkerchiefs and shadows are now healing people and in Acts 19 it says Paul performed “extraordinary miracles” that led to those in sorcery converting. Demonic miracles workers are being outclassed. Jesus explained it best Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not drive it out?” 20And He *said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you. 21But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” Matthew 17:19-21 The disciples are doing miracles with a small amount of faith but after they become filled with the Holy Spirit their faith is increased substantially. Jesus tells them if their faith was stronger they could do even more. So after they are filled their faith greatly increases and so do their miracles.

So what is our conclusion? It would appear that the filling of the Holy Spirit does four primary things though is not limited to these:

  1. The filling of the Holy Spirit gives believers great fellowship with God. No longer did the disciples have to wait to be in the same room with Jesus to talk to God but now they can do it anywhere at any time, even to the degree that their spirits are now speaking with God (tongues).
  2. The filling of the Holy Spirit gives greater revelation and gives conviction. Now believers understand the deep mysteries of God in a new way, having more convictions and are able to walk out holiness. How are they getting this? Because of point #1, fellowship with God.
  3. The filling of the Holy Spirit gives greater boldness and confidence. Now no longer do they waver like they once did Pre-Pentecost, no longer does their confidence rattle under pressure. Why? Because the Holy Spirit is testifying with theirs of their identity and that He is with them.
  4. The filling of the Holy Spirit has increased their faith. Now their faith is increased; meaning where once the idea of casting demons out was bizarre now they are breaking off addiction. Where once healing the sick was mind boggling now their shadows and handkerchiefs are doing it for them. Why? Because of greater all of the above has strengthened their faith.

So everything the disciples experienced with Jesus has now been greatly increased through the ability communing (prayer and tongues) with the Holy Spirit who gives identity, revelation, conviction and all of these through the filling of the Holy Spirit seem to increase our faith to believe for more. Pre-filling Peter believed to heal the sick, after his shadow is doing it for him. So the reason their works are increased substantially is because their faith is stronger than it once was. Now if God said “Come” Peter could probably walk on water during the worst of storms and not waver in His faith. Now John’s faith could most likely finally move that mountain. Which at least once has apparently been done in church history, but that is another story for another time…

The Man of Sorrows Acquainted with Grief

Caravaggio’s Easter- Witnessing the Kiss of Judas -the-betrayal-of-christ-
All his friends fighting to be the greatest,
Yet it was he whom He let sit the closest.
His humility and love were embraced,
As He tied an apron around His waist.
The eyes of fire becoming quenched as rivers poured forth,
So was that night he kissed Him on the cheek.
The Master becoming the Servant,
His love for him ever fervent.
Washing his feet with His tears,
The thought of his loss did He still fear.
The eyes of fire becoming quenched as rivers poured forth,
So was that night he kissed Him on the cheek.
In intimate fellowship did they observe the meal,
All the while His broken heart did He reveal.
In love did He send him out to betray,
Yet in His heart He was left in dismay.
The eyes of fire becoming quenched as rivers poured forth,
So was that night he kissed Him on the cheek.
In prayer did He wait,
Hoping that he would be late.
Longing that he would have a change of heart,
That they would never have to dwell apart.
The eyes of fire becoming quenched as rivers poured forth,
So was that night he kissed Him on the cheek.
Yet with His enemy did he arrive,
To hand Him over still alive.
In intimacy was he pursued,
And in intimacy was He betrayed.
The eyes of fire becoming quenched as rivers poured forth,
So was that night he kissed Him on the cheek.

“As Thousands of Burning Ones Sing a New Song”

Amble through the city and say what you saw,
But to dwell here forever is where you belong,
As thousands of Burning Ones sing a new song.
Awesome and great is the beautiful city,
But at her citizen’s who could pity,
Amble through the city and say what you saw.
At her beauty, the nations would desire,
Beholding her walls made of fire,
As thousands of Burning Ones sing a new song.
Among the Perfection of Beauty all stand in awe,
Before the throne all will fall,
Amble through the city and say what you saw.
Ancient of Days is all I saw,
Beholding Him I could find no flaw.
As thousands of Burning Ones sing a new song.
An appearance as a jasper and sardius stone,
Bearing eyes like fire, was He who sat on the throne,
Amble through the city and say what you saw.
Among the great throng, I will join in the song,
Beholding Glory on the sea of glass is where I belong,
Amble through the city and say what you saw,
As thousands of Burning Ones sing a new song.

Inspired by the Holy Spirit, through the book of Revelation and the song “Thousands of Burning Ones” by N. Christopherson.

The Emergence of the Beloved Son and His Temptation

The Silence

Luke 2:47 says that at age twelve Jesus amazed people with His words; we see in Matthew 13:56 that the people who saw Him grow up were amazed at His words and wondered where He got them.

“And all who heard Him were amazed at His understanding and His answers.” Luke 2:47

“And His sisters, are they not all with us? Where then did this man get all these things?” Matthew 13:56

To say that He did not speak openly because it was not His time would not explain the account found in Luke 2. One must wonder what happened in His life during those eighteen years of silence. What was life like for Him as He grew up? Was He shunned or ignored? Did He stop sharing in between? What happened in those eighteen years of silence? Did the people not pay attention to Him because He was a youth? Did they write Him off because He was a carpenter’s son, or because a carpenter Himself?

Though the scriptures are silent we are left with only fragments that shed some light on what life might have been like before His revealing at the river Jordan. Still we are left to speculate and wonder at what it was like for the darling of heaven as He lived in silence in Nazareth.



The name Nazareth is thought to derive from either the word na·tsar (נָצַר), meaning “to watch,” or ne·tser (נֵ֫צֶר), meaning “branch”, “flower”, or “offshoot”. If the latter then that would possibly shed light on Matthew 2:23’s prophecy.

“And came and lived in a city called Nazareth. This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophets: “He shall be called a Nazarene.” Matthew 2:23

If it is ne·tser then that would mean Jesus could say “I come from the Branch” or “I am of the Branch”. If this train of thought be true then it is possible that the prophecy that Matthew was alluding to was that of the Messianic Branch.

“In that day the Branch of the Lord will be beautiful and glorious, and the fruit of the earth will be the pride and adornment of the survivors of Israel.” Isaiah 4:2

“Then a shoot will spring up from the stem of Jesse, and a Branch from his roots will bear fruit.” Isaiah 11:1

“‘Behold, the days are coming,’ declares the Lord, ‘when I will raise up for David a righteous Branch, and He will reign as King and act wisely and do justice and righteousness in the land.’” Jeremiah 23:5

“‘In those days and at that time I will cause a righteous Branch of David to spring forth; and He shall execute justice and righteousness on the earth.” Jeremiah 33:15

“And the angel of the Lord admonished Joshua, 7‘Thus says the Lord of hosts, ‘If you will walk in My ways and if you will perform My service, then you will also govern My house and also have charge of My courts, and I will grant you free access among these who are standing here. 8‘Now listen, Joshua the high priest, you and your friends who are sitting in front of you—  indeed they are men who are a symbol,  for behold, I am going to bring in My servant the Branch .” Zechariah 3:6-8

“Then say to him, ‘Thus says the Lord of hosts, ‘Behold, a man whose name is Branch, for He will branch out from where He is; and He will build the temple of the Lord.’” Zechariah 6:12

In Isaiah 9, Isaiah prophecies over two the tribes of Israel, Zebulun and Naphtali, that their reproach from the Lord would soon come to an end and great glorious blessing would come to them. A great light will come to the people by way of the sea, most likely the Sea of Galilee, this light being Jesus. This is the region where Jesus grew up and here lies Nazareth. Once again this too could be the prophecy that Matthew spoke of.

“But there will be no more gloom for her who was in anguish; in earlier times He treated the land of Zebulun and the land of Naphtali with contempt, but later on He shall make it glorious, by the way of the sea, on the other side of Jordan, Galilee of the Gentiles. The people who walk in darkness will see a great light; those who live in a dark land, the light will shine on them.” Isaiah 9:1-2

Nazareth lies about 63 miles north of Jerusalem and during the time of Christ is thought to have been a more fertile farming land than a desert. Mount Megiddo lies about 11 miles west of Nazareth. Jesus would have grown up within a few miles of where the Battle of Armageddon was to take place at the end of the age. What was that like for Him?

“for they are spirits of demons, performing signs, which go out to the kings of the whole world, to gather them together for the war of the great day of God, the Almighty. 15(“Behold, I am coming like a thief. Blessed is the one who stays awake and keeps his clothes, so that he will not walk about naked and men will not see his shame.”) 16 And they gathered them together to the place which in Hebrew is called Har-Magedon.” Revelation 16:14-16


-Family Life

Following boy Jesus’ in the temple (Luke 2:41-51) Joseph seems to drop out of the picture. The main reason being that throughout Jesus’ ministry he is not seen or heard from and ultimately at the cross he is not there. Along with his absence Jesus on the cross hands over His responsibilities as the eldest son to His disciple John, this included watching over His mother Mary. If Joseph was alive or around still then this act would not be needed. The main reason why the idea of Joseph leaving the family is not logical is primarily with how he is remembered by the disciple Matthew.

“And Joseph her husband, being a righteous man…” Matthew 1:19

Along with His cousin John, Jesus also grew up with four different brothers and multiple sisters (the number is not mentioned). Jesus being the eldest would have had the responsibility of taking care of the family if Joseph were to die.

“Is not this the carpenter’s son? Is not His mother called Mary, and His brothers, James and Joseph and Simon and Judas? 56And His sisters, are they not all with us? Where then did this man get all these things?” Matthew 13:55-56

From what we see at the cross His mother Mary was still actively involved with His life even to the point of the cross, and His brothers would go on to be leaders in the New Testament church.

-Go to school or get a job?

Jesus is known as the son of the carpenter which points to that He would have worked under Joseph.

“And all were speaking well of Him, and wondering at the gracious words which were falling from His lips; and they were saying, “Is this not Joseph’s son?” Luke 4:22

Though He is not openly called a carpenter it is highly suggested that He worked as one instead of going to school. This would explain why the people were confused on where His wisdom and understanding came from. This leaves us with the notion that He grew up very simple. He was known in His hometown which means there were probably not a lot of carpenters, thus the son of one would be easily remembered, especially if He had worked as one as well.

-The Cousins

Given their relationship as cousins it is likely that both John and Jesus knew of each other. Though the question of how acquainted they were with each other still remains in question.

“Then Jesus *arrived from Galilee at the Jordan coming to John, to be baptized by him. 14But John tried to prevent Him, saying, ‘I have need to be baptized by You, and do You come to me?’ Matthew 3:14

What we do know is that when John saw Jesus coming up to him he seemed aware of who Jesus was to some degree. But at the same time he did not recognize who He fully was.

“This is He on behalf of whom I said, ‘After me comes a Man who has a higher rank than I, for He existed before me. 31 I did not recognize Him, but so that He might be manifested to Israel, I came baptizing in water.’ 32 John testified saying, ‘I have seen the Spirit descending as a dove out of heaven, and He remained upon Him. 33 I did not recognize Him, but He who sent me to baptize in water said to me, ‘He upon whom you see the Spirit descending and remaining upon Him, this is the One who baptizes in the Holy Spirit.’” John 1:30-33

However John makes it clear that John the Baptist did not recognize who Jesus really was until he saw the sign of the Holy Spirit descending upon and remaining upon Him. Given the two accounts it would seem as though John knew that Jesus was special to some degree, though at the same time not fully until the sign was given. This could be that as a youth his parents would tell him of the uniqueness of his birth as well as the uniqueness of his cousin’s. It could also be that they at one point would interact with each other while growing up and/or before they started their ministries. Another reason is that while in the wilderness John had received some form of revelation about His cousin. Or even at the point of seeing Jesus walking up to him the partial revelation of the uniqueness of Jesus came to him, but was not fully revealed until the sign of the Holy Spirit’s descent upon Jesus.

“Regarding the tension between Matthew’s account and John’s account (the former implying former knowledge, the latter implying none) can be resolved by postulating that John was aware of the promises given at Jesus’ birth and His greatness, but had not yet received the sign given him by the Father to confirm that Jesus was in fact the one he had called to prepare the way for.”[1]

As previously discussed; during the silence John had received the word of the Lord and was now proclaiming repentance. More than just any message of repentance but one declaring that the coming of the Lord and of His Kingdom drew nigh. He was also drawing in many to be baptized; which was the ritual washing for those who desired to convert to Judaism.

According to the Gospel of Luke, Jesus would begin His ministry about thirty years of age. Given their approximate six months difference in age, this would leave John to be about thirty years old as well.

“When He began His ministry, Jesus Himself was about thirty years of age…” Luke 3:23


This would then mean John to be just a few months into his ministry.

Down at the Jordan

While baptizing in the Jordan River John saw Jesus approaching him, having come from Nazareth in Galilee where He had spent the last thirty years. After roughly eighteen years of silence concerning the life of Christ everything begins to shift. Suddenly out of Nazareth a man came to the Jordan River to be baptized. It was the Christ

In those days Jesus came from Nazareth in Galilee and was baptized by John in the Jordan” Mark 1:9

-The Two Accounts

In the Gospel of Matthew John tries to stop Jesus from approaching him to be baptized by acknowledging that Jesus was of a higher rank than he.

13“Then Jesus *arrived from Galilee at the Jordan coming to John, to be baptized by him. 14But John tried to prevent Him, saying, ‘I have need to be baptized by You, and do You come to me?’ 15But Jesus answering said to him, ‘Permit it at this time; for in this way it is fitting for us to fulfill all righteousness.’ Then he *permitted Him. Matthew 3:13-15

In the Gospel of John, John the Baptist states that the Lord had given him a sign to reveal to him who the One who was to come after him was. John goes on to state that when Jesus approached him that he did not recognize Him until he saw the sign of the spirit descending and remaining upon Him.

30“This is He on behalf of whom I said, ‘After me comes a Man who has a higher rank than I, for He existed before me. 31I did not recognize Him, but so that He might be manifested to Israel, I came baptizing in water.’ 32John testified saying, ‘I have seen the Spirit descending as a dove out of heaven, and He remained upon Him. 33I did not recognize Him, but He who sent me to baptize in water said to me, ‘He upon whom you see the Spirit descending and remaining upon Him, this is the One who baptizes in the Holy Spirit.’” John 1:30-33

Here we see a contradiction where Matthew says that John recognized Him and John says that he did not recognize Him. It is in my opinion that both are right.  I would say that Matthew is right because, John in some way would have known his cousin, of His miraculous conception and birth. I highly doubt those stories would not have been told to him. Thus he would have grown up knowing there was something special about his cousin Jesus and that He was destined for greatness. John would be right in if John the Baptist was given a sign to reveal the One who came after then He would not know fully who it was until he saw the sign. Though it would be safe to assume that he was constantly searching and asking the Lord of the One who was to come, to where when Jesus would walk forward his antenna would be up because of previous experiences with Him.

-The Baptism

The Baptism of Christ. Andrea del Verrocchio and Leonardo da Vinci. c.1472-1475

As previously discussed concerning John’s baptism, it was a call to repentance and to become real Jews that are circumcised of heart and not just flesh. This was offensive to a Jewish man or woman, as they were being told they were not true Jews.

With that being said why would Jesus who has never sinned take part in the baptism of sinners? I have heard some say that Jesus was being spiritually washed as a priest, but that would be inaccurate as that was not what John’s was. His baptism was very specific in nature, hence why John at first wanted to resist. The reality is though Jesus never sinned, He did receive the baptism. It does not say He repented, because obviously there was nothing to repent too, it would seem that it was merely a sign of solidarity. In other words He would simply be saying, “See I am both circumcised of heart and of the flesh” or rather that He both agreed and partnered with John’s message of repentance and circumcision of heart.

13“Then Jesus *arrived from Galilee at the Jordan coming to John, to be baptized by him. 14But John tried to prevent Him, saying, ‘I have need to be baptized by You, and do You come to me?’ 15But Jesus answering said to him, ‘Permit it at this time; for in this way it is fitting for us to fulfill all righteousness.’ Then he *permitted Him. Matthew 3:13-15


-Behold the Son

Coming up from the water we see the famous Trinitarian scene. Here we see the Holy Spirit show up in the form of a dove and the voice of the Father declaring His affection upon His beloved Son.

16After being baptized, Jesus came up immediately from the water; and behold, the heavens were opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending as a dove and lighting on Him, 17and behold, a voice out of the heavens said, ‘This is My beloved Son, in whom I am well-pleased.’ Matthew 3:16-17


Here at the baptism we see the Father respond to both the humanity and the deity of Christ. Before entering into the temptation of the wilderness where Satan will attack His Sonship, the Father affirms Christ as His Beloved Son.

In addition the Father responds to the humility of His only begotten Son by declaring how proud of Him He is. Upon seeing the humility of the Beloved Son as He submitted to the John’s baptism was a thing of beauty. What was heaven like seeing the Word made flesh make His declaration of submission to purity and circumcision of heart through John baptism? He did not have to but still He did. He knew no sin yet He submitted to the call of circumcision of heart. He knew John was the one who had been leading the call to repentance and circumcision of heart and that He would need to submit to the one who was entrusted to lead in the moment. Along with that, but in order to begin His ministry He chose to come under John’s method of baptism.

Oh the beauty of the humility of the Beloved Son who chose to submit Himself to the current spiritual leader John and to His baptism. No wonder heaven could not be silent, no wonder the Father could not keep quiet, and no wonder why the Holy Spirit could not restrain Himself.

Matthew states that the Father says “This is My Beloved Son…” where as Mark and Luke say “You are My Beloved Son…” Though Matthew disagrees with the language used by his contemporaries, it does not interfere with the story. Whether it is the declaration to the Son or to the audience, the point still remains that the Father is proud of His Beloved Son.

21Now when all the people were baptized, Jesus was also baptized, and while He was praying, heaven was opened, 22and the Holy Spirit descended upon Him in bodily form like a dove, and a voice came out of heaven, ‘You are My beloved Son, in You I am well-pleased.’” Luke 3:21-22

9In those days Jesus came from Nazareth in Galilee and was baptized by John in the Jordan.10Immediately coming up out of the water, He saw the heavens opening, and the Spirit like a dove descending upon Him; 11and a voice came out of the heavens: ‘You are My beloved Son, in You I am well-pleased.’” Mark 1:9-11


In order to fully grasp the profundity of this moment one must take the time to truly soak it all in. Here in this one scene we see the greatness of Christ’s humility, the Father’s overwhelmed affection towards His Son and the Holy Spirit’s desire to draw near to the lowly. If the humility of Christ’s baptism is not enough then surely the thirty years of hiddenness and His subjection to His earthly family is truly a thing to cause one to marvel. Just one scene captured in the gospels or not should cause one to be left reeling in awe.

Into the Wilderness

Following this remarkable moment, Jesus led by the Spirit enters into the wilderness to fast and pray for forty days and nights enters into temptation. Having been affirmed in His Sonship by His Father, Jesus enters into the hardest temptation ever. While at His weakest, Lucifer himself shows up to tempt Christ at the end of His forty day fast.

Immediately the Spirit *impelled Him to go out into the wilderness. 13And He was in the wilderness forty days being tempted by Satan; and He was with the wild beasts, and the angels were ministering to Him.” Mark 1:12-13

“Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. 2And after He had fasted forty days and forty nights, He then became hungry.” Matthew 4:1-2

For the sake of not going into a deep Christological discussion, though Jesus in His divinity could not be tempted, in His humanity could be. How that works is a mystery. All we can say is that Jesus did endure a real temptation, it was not easy but nor was it hard.

“This mystery is great; but I am speaking with reference to Christ and the church.” Ephesians 5:32

“By referring to this, when you read you can understand my insight into the mystery of Christ,” Ephesians 3:4

-The Temptations

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Have some bread-
Satan’s first temptation was to focus in on Christ’ physical hunger as an attack on His physically weakened state, being found in his human form.

3And the tempter came and said to Him, “If You are the Son of God, command that these stones become bread.” But He answered and said, “It is written, ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.’” Matthew 4:3-4

Tentaciones de Cristo (Botticelli) (1481-82) (Zoomed in)Wanna go for a jump-
For Satan’s second temptation he attacks Christ’s identity as the Beloved Son. In the first two temptations Satan says “If You are the Son of God…” this being an obvious attack on Christ’s identity as a Son, but the second is directly focused on His identity. Satan is in essence saying “Prove that You are the Beloved Son.”Jesus in His weekend state would most likely be leaning into the audible voice from His father just forty days earlier. Notice that here Satan is quoting a scripture at Christ and as is Christ’s method He responds by leaning into the truth of His Word.

5“Then the devil *took Him into the holy city and had Him stand on the pinnacle of the temple, 6and *said to Him, “If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down; for it is written, ‘He will command His angels concerning You’; and ‘On their hands they will bear You up, So that You will not strike Your foot against a stone.’” 7Jesus said to him, “On the other hand, it is written, ‘You shall not put the Lord your God to the test.’” Matthew 4:5-7

I’ll make You famous-
The Temptation on the Mount (Duccio) (1308 and 1311)For Satan’s final attempts, he seeks to tempt Christ with all the wealth of nations, if He would only worship him. This is an attack on Christ’s patience because he knows Christ will inherit it all and more, if He remains patient. For the patient one will receive a great inheritance when they remain in subjected to the will of their Father. Satan is in a way seeking to get Christ to abandon service to His Father and get a cheaper, lesser and impure inheritance than that which He was meant to have; this is similar to that of the prodigal son. One could say that Jesus is the Son who remained unlike the prodigal and did not become jealous of the younger (us) like the older did.

“And he led Him up and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world in a moment of time. And the devil said to Him, “I will give You all this domain and its glory; for it has been handed over to me, and I give it to whomever I wish. Therefore if You worship before me, it shall all be Yours.” Jesus answered him, “It is written, ‘You shall worship the Lord your God and serve Him only.’” Luke 4:5-8

Again, the devil *took Him to a very high mountain and *showed Him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory; and he said to Him, “All these things I will give You, if You fall down and worship me.” 10Then Jesus *said to him, “Go, Satan! For it is written, ‘You shall worship the Lord your God, and serve Him only.’” 11Then the devil *left Him; and behold, angels came and began to minister to Him.” Matthew 4:8-11


With all three temptations Christ leans into the truth of the Word, as that which sustained Him.

‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.’” Matthew 4:4

In the Temptations we see Christ resisting His own fleshly desires for food, wealth and glory or rather gluttony, greed and pride. It is safe to say that He endured the temptations of all seven of the deadly sins.

  1. Sloth- He did not give in to lethargic spirit but pressed in, in prayer.
  1. Lust- He did not lust or covet the kingdoms offered him.
  2. Greed- He did not demand anything that was not His but looked to that which He was to inherit.
  3. Pride- He did not give into the temptation of proving or rather boasting in His identity.
  4. Wrath- He did not get into the fleshly anger.
  5. Gluttony- He resisted the hunger of the flesh.
  6. Envy- He did not envy Satan’s control over the kingdoms of the World, because He knew it would become His.

Jesus Ministered to by Angels (Jésus assisté par les anges) (James_Tissot) (1886 and 1894)

Following the temptations the angels come to minister to Him. To say that the temptations and the fasting of Christ was nothing more than a walk in the park is a statement of ignorance. Christ was exhausted and weak. He was tired and hungry. He was in need of someone coming to minister to Him.

What a site that must have been for the angels to look down and see the Darling of Heaven drained. To see Him exhausted and in need of help. O’ the humility of God to once again be in need of creation to help Him. When beholding the beauty of this scene one cannot simply read through it without taking the time to soak in the magnitude of what has transpired. God fought on behalf of creation.

Then the devil *left Him; and behold, angels came and began to minister to Him. Matthew 4:11

When the devil had finished every temptation, he left Him until an opportune time. Luke 4:13

A key thing to notice is in Luke it says “…until the opportune time.” This clearly points to a future temptation/attack from Satan. It would be safe to say that it was most likely pointing to the temptation to give in, in the Garden of Gethsemane, the trial or the Cross.

-Correlation between the Temptations and The Garden of Gethsemane

-In the Temptations Christ

  • Christ is tempted to give in to His own fleshly desires/will.
  • He is left alone.
  • He must trust in God’s will that He would inherit all things without needing to compromise. He resists the fleshes will of shortcutting.
  • Afterwards angels come to minister to Him.
  • A transition happens as His ministry begins.

-Garden of Gethsemane

  • Christ is tempted to give in to His own fleshly desires/will.
  • Everyone falls asleep and He is left alone.
  • He must trust in God’s will and not His fleshes will.
  • Afterwards angels come to minister to Him.
  • A transition happens as His ministry is coming to an end.

To Be Continued- The Beginning of Christ’s Ministry

[1] Stephen Venable, Life of Christ in the Gospels: Session 05- Emergence, p24

Confession of Faith

I believe in one God,
The Father, the Almighty,
Maker of Heaven and Earth,
Of all that is seen and unseen.
I believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ,
The only begotten Son of God,
Eternally begotten of the Father,
Begotten, not made,
The very light of the glory of God,
In Him was life and through Him all things are,
God from God, true light from true light,
The Great I AM, and of one Being with the Father.
For us and for our salvation,
He came down from heaven to show us the way,
By the power of the Holy Spirit,
He took on flesh and became incarnate through the virgin Mary,
And was made man.
By His Father’s will and His desire for us He suffered under Pontius Pilate,
He was beaten, crucified and buried in accordance with scriptures,
And on the third day He rose again,
And is alive forever more.
He holds the keys to Death and Hades,
And has ascended to the right hand of the Father.
He will return to judge the living and the dead,
For He will sit upon the throne of His father David,
As He ushers in His kingdom, that will know no end.
I believe in one Holy Spirit who proceeds from the Father and the Son,
He is God, the Lord, the giver of life and revealer of mysteries
He along with the Father and the Son shall be worshiped and glorified,
He has spoken through the Prophets
I believe in one holy, catholic and apostolic church.
I believe in one baptism for the forgiveness of sins.
I believe in the filling of the Holy Spirit.
I believe is the gifts and ministries of the Holy Spirit.
And I look forward to my blessed hope,
The resurrection of the dead,
And the eternal life of the age to come. Amen.

The Need for Students of the Word

The world waits in anticipation for the students of the Word of God to arise again. There are many in the world today with the questions and many of them are seeking the answers. If the church cannot adequately meet the questions with clears answers from the Word of God they will look elsewhere. Whether it is science, Islam, Buddhism or whatever the people are longing for “truth” even if it is tainted or false. For the one seeking intellectual/scientific proof of the existence of God the church must be ready to meet them with answers to their question. If the one is looking to find peace in a chaotic world the church must be there to meet them lest Buddhism or something else tries to. For some it could simply be why believe in Christianity when we have so many contradicting doctrines like Calvinism vs. Arminianism. This is why we must become students of the Word.

In an age where information is at the tip of your fingers, the need for students of the Word is grave. We can no longer live by quoting another’s point, but must search out the truths of God’s Word and know it for ourselves. I find that one of the reasons why atheism and religions like Islam are growing so fast is because believers are not grounded in the Word. Many in the western church have sought the excuse of “not being called” to not be ready or for others they just quote the pastor or another without knowing it for themselves. For the latter this is quite dangerous because when confronted with the questions and not being grounded in the Word, one not only will lose a chance to be a witness of the Truth, but can be susceptible to stumbling or even losing faith. For the former, though I do not believe all are called to be preachers or evangelists; I do believe that all are called to know God and when asked about Him all should able to respond. “…be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort, with great patience and instruction.”  2 Timothy 4:2 Loving God is inseparable with knowing Him and talking to Him.

Loving God, being a man/woman of prayer, and being a student of the Word are one in the same. One cannot say that they love God but aren’t called to be a student of the Word nor pray. The idea is simply absurd. How can one say they love someone and not want to get to know them or spend time with them? We get to know Him by reading His Word for it is out path into knowing Him. The blessed scriptures are letters from God to us that we would know about Him and prayer is simply talking to Him about the letters and so much more. Well for the one who thinks that they just need to pray and love Jesus you still can’t do it without His word to spring-board you into deeper prayer. I have found for myself personally the more I read and study the word as well as the context of the scriptures my heart just explodes with love and affection for Him. Many times I have sat studying the context of a passage and before I even got into the words of the scriptures my heart was already overflowing just by understanding the context of the audience and the issues of the setting.

It would seem that two of the biggest struggles for many believers are that they don’t have the Word of God and many others they either take it for granted or twist its original meaning. What I mean by this is that they might either twist things to fit their own ideas, spiritualize the meaning, or seek to personalize it by saying “it is all about them.” The first gives us doctrines that promote universalism, the second gives us ideas saying the book of Revelations is not literal and the latter takes away the context of the passages, which for many they either begin proof-texting or not seeing that the Word had a specific audience. One example is obvious is if we don’t know why Paul says women should be silent in church then we will miss the point and hold women back from entering into their calling in God. The book of Song of Solomon was written as a love story between one man and one woman, then it became canonized by the Jews and was seen as a depiction between God and Israel and finally it became seen as a depiction between Christ and His Church. Now we have taken the book of Song of Solomon and say it is just about Christ and us. Though we can apply the truths of the book to our individual selves we must acknowledge that the context is Christ and His Church as a whole as well as it is Solomon and the Shulamite, without that view we miss much.

My desire is to see people giving themselves fully the knowledge of God, that men and women would become students of the Word. O’ that believers would begin to dig deep into the treasure of God’s Word. What would it look like if the Church knew the Word of God and even some of the context behind it more than the Muslims do the Koran? What would it look like if believers knew the Word of God clearly and contextually more than scientists their books of science? For this I am sure the witness of the Church would be powerful. We would no longer have contradicting doctrines concerning God. The message of the church would no longer differ from denomination to denomination, allowing the World to clearly understand the message. It is always really hard to receive directions to a couple’s house when the husband says one way and the wife says another. Or rather when you ask someone what an elephant looks like and one says it has big ears and the other says it has a long nose, both are true but are lacking and not clear. But if you go to one who has studied elephants and they describe them as large grey mammals, with long noses, tucks, big ears, small skinny tails and weigh over a ton; then your audience will actually know, understand and believe. We must become students of the Word that we may be a clear witness, ready to confidently meet the questions of the world and even more that we would know this One whom we love.

A Root Out of Dry Ground Destined for Greatness

As a tender shoot you grew,

But your destiny He alone knew,

A root out of dry ground destined for greatness.


A seed planted for life,

Bringing an end to all strife,

A means to an end you became.


An appearance that one might ignore,

Beautiful was the humility that you bore,

A root out of dry ground destined for greatness.


As a branch you were cut off from the land of the living,

But through your death you were still giving,

A means to an end you became.


Attempting to break you with nails,

But still you did not fail,

A root out of dry ground destined for greatness.


As such a time as this you were raised,

Bearing the root of Jesse we stand amazed,

A means to an end you became,

A root out of dry ground destined for greatness.